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Illumination_ Chapter Thirty-Eight: Inner Admittance

Note: As you may know Winglin has been down for awhile now. Therefore, I had kept this chapter for awhile but each time I go check...the link is not working. So...I decided to post it here in the meanwhile. I don't have the heart to make my readers wait anymore...(^-^) By the way, through to the unreliability of winglin, I plan to create a site with my fanfictions. It is still in-process and I was hoping to copy and paste my chapters from winglin into my own site...since I am too tried to organize it in my computer. LOL! Well, after such a long wait, I hope you enjoy this chapter!

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Chapter Thirty-Eight: Inner Admittance

It wasn’t everyday that something as impossible as what he just experienced happen. He seriously wanted to laugh about the irony of life. In his thirty so years of life, he never experienced something so ridiculous…so bizarre.

Afterward, he drove aimlessly on the road, searching and seeking for something…anything to understand what was going on. When a person was forced to face what he had been doing for his entire life, he was thrown into a pool of confusion. It was worst when he was forced to realize what he had been doing…was questionable.

…And his very existence and perception of life had been turned upside down.

It was three A.M. in the morning until he stepped into his empty house, and the coldness overwhelmed him. Staring at it as if it was all strange to him, he closed his eyes. With a sigh, he walked up the stair to his bedroom and on the way, he stopped at his sons’ bedrooms. Needing and wanting their presence and innocence, he approached them and gently buried his face on their shoulders. Inhaling their warmth and love, he kissed them each individually before he walked out and closed the door.

At last, he entered Nancy’s bedroom…for the first time.

Since they separated their bedroom, Ron had never entered her bedroom before, respecting her privacy. However, on this night, he had to ask her something. He wasn’t sure what he hoped to find but he want to know…

…Why?

He approached her bed slowly, afraid to woke her up. Yet, when he was standing there, looking at his wife, he realized if he wanted answers, he will need to wake her up.

“Nancy…” He barely whispered as if he was afraid to wake her…afraid to ask the question. “I…” He hesitated, watching Nancy’s peaceful form. “I know what you did.” She stirred but settled down again. Ron let out the breath he was holding. “I don’t know what to say.”

Honestly, he didn’t even know what he was doing…and what he wanted any longer. With an unseen force weighting down his shoulders, he turned to go when Nancy’s arm shot out and grabbed him.

It wasn’t the abruptness that shocked him. It was the strength her fingers digging into his skins that alarmed him.

“Nancy?” He settled down next to her and gently held her hand. Sweats were beaming on her forehead. He touched her cheek. “Nancy darling?”

“Ron…” She sounded like she was breathing through pain. “My water broke…”

“What?!” He exclaimed. “I…I will go get the nurse.”

He was about to run out but Nancy held him still. “Mimi…Mimi is not here. Her daughter got into a minor accident. I let her go home to take care of her.”

“Ambulance!…” Ron shouted and started dialing. Afterward, he pressed the intercom.

“Power!”

No respond.

“Power!”

Nothing.

Where could his driver be? He was about to press the button again when Nancy tugged his arm again. “He’s not here.”

“What?!”

“I just told you…”Nancy swallowed the pain. “His daughter got into an accident.”

Ron was confused. Is the pain causing Nancy to hallucinate? “Nancy…You just told me Mimi’s daughter is in an accident. Now you are telling me Power’s daughter…” He trailed off when he saw Nancy smiled through her pain.

“Ron.” She whispered softly. “Mimi’s daughter is Power’s daughter.”

“Huh?” His confusion at the moment lessened his worry.

Nancy smiled. “They are husband and wife.”

Ron was shocked. When did his nurse and driver got together? “They are married?”

Nancy laughed. “For five years, Ron.”

He smiled but when another contraction hit Nancy, Ron’s panic returned. “How are you feeling?” His hands were trembling.

“Ron…I don’t think I could wait for the ambulance.”

The contractions were coming too close. “Come on, we will get to the hospital.” Lifting Nancy into his arms, he started for the stairs. “Wait.”

“Nancy, we can’t wait.” He was getting impatient.

“Get Mary.”

The nanny? “Good idea!” Ron shouted for the woman, and she appeared in less than a minute.

“Yes, sir.”

“Accompany us to the hospital.”

“No.” Nancy whispered. “Mary…” She held out her arms to the sixty years old woman. “Look after Mitchell and Mikey for me. When they wake up… tell them I will have a surprise for them when I come back…”

The nanny nodded in reassurance. “You go and give birth to a health baby, madam. I will look after your boys.”

“Thank you.” She smiled beautifully at her, even in such a state. Ron quickly hurried Nancy outside and into his car. Glancing at Nancy from the backseat of his car one more time, he started the engine.

“How are you feeling, dear?”

Nancy looked very pale but she was putting on a brave front while Ron tried to remain calm. He would constantly glance at the rear mirror to make sure Nancy was doing alright. “We will be there in no time.” He wiped the sweat from his forehead. “Hold on…” He prayed.

As if god was angry with him, the car jerked and the engine started echoing a very disturbing noise. “No…No!” He continued to drive while yelling at the car…until it finally slow down and stop. “No!” Ron hit the steering wheel with his palm. “F*king useless piece of crap!”

Behind him, he heard Nancy burst into laughter. Ron continued to turn on the engine, hoping for a miracle. He didn’t give up until he heard the painful gasp behind him. Rushing out the side door, he pulled open the back door. “Nancy…” Helplessly, he watched Nancy breathing through the pain.

She looked so pale, Ron thought. Terrified, his trembling hand held her clutching hand. He ignored her fingernails digging into his skins. “Relax…Relax…”

He didn’t know what to do or say. He had never been in such a situation and it terrified him to the point where his brain wasn’t even functioning coherently. He never thought about the process of childbirth. The first time it happened, he was away from a business trip. By the time he came home, both boys were in their cribs. He never worried about the pregnancy because he hired the best medical care for Nancy. Now…

“Ron…” Nancy’s weak whisper penetrated his mind. “Do you have your phone with you?”

His expression looked so grateful for the suggestion, he could almost weep. Searching his pockets, Ron frowned. He couldn’t find it. He started fanatically looking for his phone…but nothing. “I…I…think I was charging it on my desk.”

Nancy patted his hand and smile reassuringly. “Everything will be fine.” She took a deep breathe. “It shouldn’t be so hard. I did this before…I know what to do.”

Ron relaxed slightly. Thank god…because he had no idea what to do. They are stranded on this road, miles away from town. There was no way of communication.

Nancy was trying to give him instruction but his mind was clouded in fear…fear of Nancy and their unborn child. He jerked unconsciously as Nancy screamed in pain.

“Oh god…oh god…” He sat there uselessly with Nancy gripping his hand. “Breath…Take slow deep breathe…” He wasn’t sure he should be giving advice but…he was at the end of his rope here. “Nancy…”

“Ron, I think I will be having our baby here.”

“No…no, the ambulance will come.”

“Ron…” He raised his head to her demanding tone. “I will be having the baby here. Right now.”

“Oh god…” He took a deep breathe. “What…what do you want me to do?” He looked around in panic.

“Listen…” Ron paid close attention to what Nancy was saying but his face turn whiter and whiter by the second.

“Ron, it’s going to be okay.” She smiled awkwardly. “We will have this baby together.” He nodded and his eyes turned soft.

Nancy was the one in pain. Nancy was the one losing all the blood and fighting for both her and the baby’s life. Yet, she was the one who was reassuring and comforting him. His eyes started to tear up as Nancy experienced another wave of pain. “Hang in there, baby…” He whispered as he leaned over and kissed her on the forehead. Pulling away, he smiled at her and she smiled back. They both silently communicate their thoughts. They will get through this. Their eyes and gestures spoke of unconditional comfort to each other.

Settling back at his instructed position, he watched in fascination and terror as a miracle happened. He watched as Nancy moaned and groaned until he saw it.

Holding onto the tiny being, he looked as if he was dreaming as he hugged the little creature in his arms. Honestly, it looked nothing like those two adorable fresh babies he held; instead this baby looked wrinkle and reddish. Yet, he knew the instant it was in his arms…he love this tiny being with all his heart.

Nancy stared in wonder at Ron’s expression as he held their daughter in his arms. He looked…awe, like he suddenly struck by lightening. She watched in glittering tears as Ron’s finger gently caressed the baby’s cheek and he started counting her fingers and toes.

“Ten…Ten…” He mumbled happily. Every fear…every doubt vanished when this little baby girl appeared in his world. It was amazing...how it fights its way into this world…into his arms. It was truly a miracle. He had never seen anything like this. With watery eyes, he looked into Nancy’s understanding eyes. “Thank you…” He whispered softly and moved toward her with the baby wailing in an unfamiliar environment.

Miles away, a siren echoed loudly as the ambulance strolled down the road. When they finally stopped at a stranded car in the middle of the road, the paramedics found a pair of loving parents comforting a wailing newborn baby…

***

He watched through the glass window as the nurse monitored their daughter’s heartbeat. His finger lingered on the panel, longing for the feel of his daughter’s soft cheeks. There was a rare kind of happiness and contentment in his heart he never felt. He smiled softly as the nurse nodded to him, informing him that everything was fine. He watched as the nurse went off to check on the other babies. Yet, his eyes continued to watch his child fidgeting on the crib. As his eyes took in the innocence and curiosity of his daughter’s round bright eyes, he sighed. Leaning against the glass, he recalled the event before all this happen…to the day before…

***

He entered the shop in eagerness and nervousness as the bell rang above him when he opened the door. It was a familiar coffee shop he often came with her, with the heavily coffee scent swirling in the air. He always enjoyed the relaxing and smoothing atmosphere of this shop, only a few blocks away from his office. Standing near the doorway, he scanned the customers until his eyes landed on her.

As he approached the table, he noticed that she was still the same. In a blue laced blouse and skirt, she was sitting straightly on one of the bench. He smiled when she was playing with the ice in her drink with her straw. Her hair was much longer and it was settled loosely on her shoulders. Yet, as he neared her, he felt that she was not the same. He couldn’t place his hand on what changed but…

She finally looked up when she sensed his presence. “Hello, Ron.” She smiled at him.

Settling down across from her, he absorbed her appearance. She was really here.

“Tavia…”

She smiled at how much emotions were expressed through that deep voice. “It is good to see you again.”

“Why?” He looked at her and ached to touch her.

Tavia pushed her drink away. “I wasn’t planning on coming back, Ron.” She looked out the glass window onto the street below with a sad expression. “I know I owned you a goodbye but…” She shrugged. “I guess you can blame me for leaving like that. However, our relationship was never normal…” She smiled. “Yet, I still believe it was for the best.”

Ron frowned.

“I know…I know what kind of man you are Ron. If I informed you of my intention, you will move heaven and earth to keep me. Even as we speak, the only reason you found me today is that you hired a private detective to track me.”

“You expected me.” He stated.

“Yes. The moment I entered Hong Kong, I knew you will know.”

Ron straightened. “If you didn’t want to come back…why?” He swallowed the sudden bitterness and pain emerging from the pit of his heart. He was expecting Tavia to be glad to see him. He was hoping that he could convince her to stay with him. However, one look into her eyes, he knew…it was too late.

Tavia sighed. “I knew it won’t do us good to see each other. We had a very complex and emotional history. Some are happy memories…others are…” She trailed off. “But it was our experiences and I won’t change any of it. It was what shaped us. Ron…” She placed her hand on top of his. “No matter what, you are a very vital part of my life. I am not what I am today without you. Therefore, it took me awhile until I agree to come back.”

Ron ignored the feeling of being on the edge of grasping his heart’s true desire and it was sudden pulled from his reach. “Agree?”

Tavia smiled. “When I left you, I went to search for myself. I traveled as far as Finland, wander a few days in Canada, and went to see the sunset in Australia…until I finally settled down. I never expected anyone to find me…but someone did.” She smiled knowingly. “I never met her. But I only knew one person in my past that was pregnant.” Ron gasped. “Never in a million years would I expect to see the woman who I had an affair with her husband standing there.”

“How…? What…?” Ron was too flustered to talk.

She shrugged. “How? Apparently, she knew someone in the U.S. who hired a P.I to track me. As for why she seeks me out…” Tavia looked away in sadness. “She knew, Ron. She knew we had been having an affair for years behind her back. Yet, she didn’t came to look for me as a justified wife. She asked me for a flavor.” She looked straight into Ron’s eyes. “She believed I am the only person in this world that could convince you to stop what you are doing.”

Ron was speechless.

Tavia shook her head. “She believed I would be able to stop you from hurting yourself and everyone around you.” She chuckled softly. “But no one can, Ron. No one…except you. You have always told me that fulfilling your father’s wish was everything to you…but look around you. Just like your father, you would lose everything that is important. You won ‘Essence’ but tell me, Ron, are you happy? Your brother is hiding from your reality, your sons are being isolated from you, and your wife… only a desperate woman would go so far as helping you.”

Tavia looked away. “I never expected to come back…but when a pregnant woman almost begged me to go back to her husband, even someone as cold as ice would be moved. Ron…” She leaned over toward him. “Don’t take what you have for granted. You have a family. Your wife loves you. Turn back now and cherish them…Before it is too late. Before you realize that when you finally turned around, there is no one left.”

Ron couldn’t…wouldn’t accept this…because if he did, it meant that everything he every strived for in life would just be ashes. “Nancy doesn’t love me.” He looked away.

“You keep telling yourself that but answer me…” She waited for Ron to turn toward her. “If she doesn’t love you, would she came all the way to the U.S. to convince me to come back? If she doesn’t love you, would she be carrying your child? Ron…no women in this universe would have three children with a man she doesn’t love and agreed to stay in a loveless marriage.” When Ron was about to argue, Tavia stopped him with her hand. “Do you know how I realize how much she loves you?...I asked her. I asked her why she was doing this. Do you know what she told me? She looked me in the eyes and told me ‘Because you are the only woman Ron had ever loved.’.”

Tavia paused. “There were tears in her eyes…and a steel determination that I would be able to help. Yet, from woman to woman, I saw…I saw the despair in her eyes. When I asked her why she would stay in a loveless marriage with you… She told me… ‘Not every woman is as lucky as you, to have someone who loves you. Some women just have to accept what there is…’.”

Watching the stunned look on Ron’s face, Tavia turned to leave. She had came and said everything she intended.

“Look into your heart, Ron. You could have the whole world…but when you looked down from the top from your position, you would realize…you are all alone.”

With a finally advice, she stepped out of his life… and never turned back.



***

Confidence.

That’s the difference in Tavia, Ron realized. She was no longer that sweet, helpless girl he met and fell in love with. She had discovered herself. A part of his heart was happy for her, yet, the selfish part of him was grieving that Tavia no longer needed him. She had found her life and it had nothing to do with him.

Ron closed his eyes, letting past memories dissolve in his mind.

…And let what he had learned enter his mind.

If he had any doubt of what Tavia stated, it was dash the instant he watched Nancy gave birth to their daughter. It was at that instant he realize what Tavia meant. Yet, admitting that Nancy had feeling for him could only add to the mountain of guilt he felt in her presence.

Lost…

He had never been lost in his life before…and now…

Standing at an interaction, he was forced to choose between the two roads ahead of him.

May god help him for he had lost all sense of direction…

***

Meanwhile, across town, two people were engaged in a serious discussion of how to defeat him.

She crossed her legs and opened the file in front of her. “I went over my father’s documents and all those transactions he recorded in his files as the attorney of this company.” Myolie frowned. “It was strange. He recorded a transaction of transferring 3% of its share to a woman called Elizabeth Mai. However, there was no specific contract or even the sales on record.”

“Maybe Aunty might know something about this woman. At that time, aunty was still an active member of ‘Essence’.” Raymond was picking up the phone when Moses entered with three cups of coffee.

“Here…” Moses placed the cups on the conference table when Raymond hanged up.

“She is not picking up.” He smiled. “I guess the wedding is taking up all of her time…but I will ask her when I get home tonight.”

Myolie nodded while Moses scanned through the files on the table. He sipped his coffee and frowned.

“What’s wrong?” Myolie asked when she caught the frown on his face.

“What is my mother’s name doing on this document?”

Instantly, Raymond and Myolie stared at each other and then turned their heads toward Moses simultaneously.

“What?” Moses looked at them with a clueless expression.

“Elizabeth Mai is your mother?”

“Yeah, Mai is her maiden name.” Moses frowned. “Now can you tell me what is going on?”

Myolie explained to Moses that his mother owned 3% of ‘Essence’ shares. “Moses, do you know what happened to those shares when your mother passed away?”

He shook his head. “My father handled all my financial matter and I doubt we can ask him…but maybe Steven knows since he is my lawyer.”

Myolie nodded and started dialing Steven’s number.

“Do you know what this might mean?” Raymond said to Moses.

“Yeah…” He smiled and took a sip from his cup. “We might win this.”

Myolie hanged up. “Steven said he will look into it and call us back.”

“Well, I guess all we can do is to wait now. The meeting is tomorrow. Essence’s fate would be determined then…” He unfolded his arms and stood up. “As for now, I am going to pick Maddie up from school.”

As Moses closed the door behind him, Raymond laughed out loud. “The irony of life. One moment we were discussing ways to save ‘Essence’… the next we are doing something as normal as picking up our daughter from school. So… what do you say… Dinner?”

Myolie was busy organizing the files when what Raymond said penetrated her mind. “Dinner?” She looked at Raymond and frowned. “Well, I guess we can discuss our strategy for dinner tonight…” She stood up. “Sure. I’ll tell Moses.” She turned to go when Raymond placed his hand on her arm.

“Myolie…”

She turned around toward him.

“I mean dinner as in you and me.”

She frowned. “What are you getting at, Raymond?” She looked at him suspiciously.

“It’s just dinner, Myolie.” He sighed. “I know there are many unresolved issues between us…but we are still very good friends.” He said sadly. “Would you…would you have dinner with me tonight?”

Myolie desperately wanted to say no. Why add salt to a bleeding wound? Yet, looking into his adorable and silly expression with a hint of anxiety to it, she smiled softly at him.

“Yes.”

His face relaxed and an unexplainable sense of pleasure spread through his chest.

***

He was whistling when he entered the house. With his keys still dangling in his hand, he closed the door behind him. Turning around, he continued whistling with his mind on where he was planning to take Myolie tonight.

As he turned toward the dinning room, he sudden stopped in his track.

The key dropped onto the carpet without making any noise.

He watched in complete stillness as the person sitting in his living room stood up and turned toward him.

“Hello, Raymond.”

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Well, what do you think? This is sort of an intense chapter and I hate to post it in such a way...does it ruin the effect? (^v^) Anyway, please leave a comment on what you think!



P.S. Hm…I am not even going to count the days…months…when I updated. Hopefully, someone still remember this story. I need to apologize because my update won’t be frequent. I promised to finish this story and I will…In the meantime, I guess look out for my inconsistent update.

Your dear,
Breeze (LOL!)

An Uninvited Date: Red-Eyes=Red Apple=Satan?

Picture credit to raymondlam.info

Yesterday, Raymond participated in the costume fitting for his latest drama, An Uninvited Date. Honestly, this character is like a dream come true for me. For those who know me, I am a crazy fan on supernatural themes and stories. Imagine my surprise when Raymond have the role of a Satan-like character who are not only supernatural but he is evil!

The costume was a little disappointment because I was expecting something more...unique. However, I love the red eyes. I was kind of expecting a 'punk' like Satan with a dark gang member costume but judging from his outfit, he is probably a sophisticated Satan with polish...

Overall, this will be my most anticipated series so far. I can't wait for more news and pictures of this drama! Wonderful! (^v^)